Is back!

Yup things are crazy again so turning to this blog.

Well at least I can admit it this time without someone shaking me.

Maybe reading back through all this has made me realise something.



So what tipped the iceburg this time, guess its my own silly ways. But why does someone loving you seem to give them the permission to hurt you, suppose if im sensible and look at it logically someone was always going to get hurt.
He is married but they are not together least thats what I am told, I didn't expect anything more than friendship but he really faught to get my attention, I let him in, and the friendship developed. He loves me but loves his kids and I can totally understand that. Doesnt stop the heart aching, so when i talk about this and say im backin off as I couldnt quite handle him not being in my life at all, he tells me I will never lose him, and how he wishes he could shout his love for me from the rooftops, but he can't. He tells me he wants to talk to me and says nothing.

Men I don't get them. Only man I got was my dad, wish he was here he could maybe explain the inners of the mans mind a lil better.
Yeah I know I haven't let go there either, I still want to wake up all for it to be a dream and him and mum still to be here.

life is odd love is odder when the 2 collide hell we r screwed!!