So this year hmmmm.........
Well I got rid of some rubbish, the man I split with prior to last Christmas finally moved out and finally stopped contacting me.
I battled with some huge health issues, Its not been easy but I am still here battling the world. It is kinda scary waking up on a floor and not being sure why!
Even scarier being rushed to A & E, seeing a nurse in triage that drags you straight through to a bed and attaches enough leads to eletrocute an elephant.
Nope I am not thinking these problems have gone away forever but they have taken a rest and I am greatful for that I am getting a grip back on life!
I went back to work after my illness and spent a week in tears, they wanted me to leave without a doubt they made my life so hard and stressful again that i was feeling ill. At the end of the first week, they made me an offer, I loved my job but I had to make a decision and I had to look after me. Good news I found a new job and I am loving it, I now work with a friendly and understanding team who really have made me feel welcome and its back in my hometown.
Moving back home as much as really I only lived down the road, wasn't all that easy, did I make the right decision well we will see but I had to do it for a job that is so far so good!
The most beautiful gift ever my nephew, he means so much to me and my bro and his wife after the last 6 years, I look at him and see my dad which is spooky in a way but good in every other. I have watched my bro grow so much into his father role, he now seems to be relaxing a little and enjoying it, spose he aint my baby bro no more.
I met up with some old friends some for the better, some for the worse.
A friend said damn its like theres been a public service announcement telling everyone you are single. I was used by one and most recently lied to again. People wonder why I have a problem with trust. Facebook wow, how many people have got in touch via that this year. I am so happy for many of them, Dan your life is going good your lil girl your lovely woman! Sarah aint things just rosey! Laurz so 2009 kinda followed 2008's lead but you know what 2010 is gonna be our year lets grab it by the horns and make it ours.
I am now being cautious battling my head and heart as to wether or not I am being over cautious. I can't just give myself anymore I do get attached to people and I give totally, guess the barbs are up its just going to take the right person to cut through them.
Am I ok, honestly I don't think so now, something keeps popping up and . .. .... .. ... .. ......
What do the dots resemble what I cant say or type out loud. Maybe face to face it would be different but I don't know 11 and a bit months ago I would have jumped at it but now I wonder, the barbs are up and I am looking for something.. I suppose if something wants to break down the barbs again it will come get it and take it, but hopefully take care of it better than its previous owners.!
Hugs and Best Wishes
Me
XxX
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