OK ok I am posting..
Would like to say I am well and good but I am not.
I have started about 2 different posts in the last few days but neither got published...... Why well I did not finish them, if you read this it means 3rd time lucky.
So whats going on........
Once again I am off work, never thought I would say this but I miss it!!!
After a funny turn at the start of this week that left me unable to get to my feet in a classroom, I aint been the same, have saw the doc and they are now saying everything thats causing me problems at the moment is related to inner ear inflammation. It is better than other options but my hearing and balance issues could get worse only time will tell. The drugs I am on are a nightmare, back to no sleep, I honestly feel like I have been on speed for the better part of 4 days, sleep whats that well I am managing about 3 hours a day thats when I have a huge break from tablets, spoke to the doctor and yes apparently Insomnia can be a side effect. On the other hand he is telling me I could be on these drugs for some time, yeah speed rules..... word of warning though if you like your sleep I would not suggest sharing a room with me currently.
Homelife is much the same, hes till here we are so over its frightening and all I want now is my own time and space. Or more importantly a chance to do what I want when I want and not feel like I am still explaining myself.
I want to move on and move forward as well, I have loved and lost, but also loved a learnt..... maybe next time I wont make the same mistakes over!
I do wish I could turn back the clock, not a few weeks or months but a few years so I could fast forward back through and see where I went wrong. Anyone have any ideas, answers on the back of a postcard as I know of at least 6 of you that read this regularly but never comment....... hehehehe
So there you go a post!
Wishing wont stop
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About Me
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- I have realised in the last 6-7 years of my life, I have not lived the here and now. I have reflected so much on the past it has become me. I believe I need to let go of some of this and here is where I may or may not do it. Nah there isnt a grammatical error in the title thats they way I want it! But there prob is a lot of spelling and grammar oopsies throughout.
1 comment:
i have been following your posts for some time, but felt that i did not have place to comment. I do hope You get through these troubling times. I do agree that this year will be a good one for A/all, but it just seems we must first walk through the fires of our times, to make it into the clearing. I do hope you stay strong, and are surrounded by true friends to help you through this.
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