To be Honest

It has all gone Pete Tong!

I don't know what to do anymore, seems whatever I touch or do turns to shit!

Relationships, friendships etc..... I am just no good at them.

I would agree with a lot thats been said about me today, I am honestly scared of how I feel at the moment, I haven't drank even though the bottle of vodka sits by my bed. I am trying to stop gettin stressed as can feel my skin starting to get irritated and the scratching isnt easy to supress.

Normality strikes tomorrow, I have to teach, I have to paint my smily face and help them reach for their dreams. Even though my own are in tatters.

Who said 2009 would be my year as I am feeling that its being ripped from my heart, I wanted this to be a good year and I am hoping this is an early glitch and that the rest of it can only get better. Hoping that I wake up from the bad dream...

wishing
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