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Its an odd old world.



The curve balls keep coming and I keep dodging the ones I can.

Great news on Christmas eve, my bro and his wife are expecting their first baby, will make me an official aunt, not unofficial like I am to many of my cousins kids. He called me to tell me at a time I was thinking fuck it I hate it all, it made me smile it made me realise that this circle is constantly moving and without it, where would we all be.....

Well Christmas was strange to say the least, I did everything I said I wouldn't on Christmas day and worked my arse off to ensure that it was as good as it could be. Dinner was perfect even if I do say so myself. The evening was hard, exes daughter arrived and as much as I love her to pieces and would still move the world for her if I could, it was hard.
Boxing day went thes same way, I felt for his daughter she cant of enjoyed being in the middle!!

Did I get what I wished for over Christmas, nah prob wont get it, its a fact we all want what we cant have. Humans have an in built greed that just makes us want more.

Many of my best friends also seem to be going through the mill, I know its the time of year for it, but its the nice ones, the ones that have been there for me, and it hurts me that they don't want to burden me. But thats the way of the world I guess.

Anyhow I am gonna run now, I have lots to do and avoiding not doing a lot will be hard. Off to my bros for new year! Will be odd as hes working but will be with his wife and family, and they are a little tame. Oh my poor them letting me loose on them for new year.

So I part with these readers, happy new year, may 2009 allow us all to stop and see the real beauty of the world, allow us to see whats really going on around us.

Still Wishing
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