Sometimes there should be a way, a way you can just shut the door on something! Not forever just temporarily, enough to let you be comfortable in your own skin!
So Tues I headed off, needed to find somewhere I could feel comfortable being me.
Its odd i don't, and that's no fault of where I am its the constant texts, calls and messages from him. I know he is hurting, I am hurting too, even if i do my darnest not to show it!
He crossed the line logging into my fb though, am a little angry about that, I know it wasn't me and whats nice to know is the friend that he talked to, believes me to. He wont be doing it again. I wont be telling him that he will just find out for himself.
I know I like to distance myself, that helps me get the correct perspective. I know to well if I stay in a situation I tend to go a little wacky that's when I am likely to start the verbal fight as its my way of defending myself. I can feel myself getting to that stage now whats stopping me the distance.
All that said it would be a lot different if I was there, and am incredibly grateful to have been able to rely on someone to enable me to get away, and have moments of escapism which I know have been good for me.
Enough said this time!
xx
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